Monday

Monday: Today was a hard day...I didnt much care for it actually... First off all German class was difficult and I left their not only with a mountain of homework and to study for a test tomorrow but also a sincere fatigue , that we all felt, so none of us wanted to go out sight seeing. Needing a pick me up I went in search for chocolate....I ate one small piece and let me tell you a small little thing never tasted so good. When I got home I went straight to work for several hours on homework and later in the evening had dinner, answered emails, got a phone call from YFU to set up my "meeting* for this friday at the train station after class for ice cream. Yet most of you are probbably wondering well this sounds like a typical day what made it so bad...? Well what put me in somewhat of a downing mood was that I cant seem to get away from cigarrette smoke or cigar smoke anywhere I go....Either the city or the train station...Even my host dad smokes outside. Although, today he said he wanted to stop for good....Yet like at the train station people were blowing it into my face without even caring when I had sat down first....It was quite annoying and raelly put me into a grimacing mood. Then later I found out that a few off my friends - or people I had considered friends- are seeming to feel since I moved to Switzerland for this year I must not be able to contact them back so why bother trying. I'm not saying I can call every day but I can email and in truth getting mail and happy notes on facebook/imvu or other things makes a hard day better for me...For it shows that everything I did was worth it for the people are suppiorting me...As well as are still behind me and with me no matter what I choose. Feeling that people arent behind me and are breakign contact with me because of this transtion in my life is making a tough step that much harder....Yet I'm strong and shall prevail thanks to kind friends and family whom stood by my venting and knew that in reality what I needed most was trully just an outlet for what had been building. Thank You for that everyone...you know whom you are hehe ...-points to everyone reading this- for if you are reading this you care about me...:P I miss you all and I promised a TRUTHFULL happening and what im feeling so thats Why I wrote this....its not that I feel this anymore, or not as strongly anyway...just wanted to tell you all :D
LOVE AND MISS YOU....HUGS AND KISSES....